Wow… 2014… I just looked back at my last blog post and it was August 2011. It is actually terrifying that was two and a half years ago and although to the outside world it may look like I gave up on writing, I really didn’t. In January 2012, I began a private journal about my journey trying to become pregnant, being pregnant and then the aftermath of trying to figure out how to be a Mom. It wasn’t something I wanted to make public at the time, but I’m letting my journal stay on the back burner for now and am still considering turning it into a book at a later date. The thoughts I wrote in there were deeply personal and I’m not sure I’m ready for the world to see it yet.
So much has happen since my last post but the best thing was Dylan… my biggest most beloved distraction. I devoted the last year to him, giving him most of my heart, time and thoughts. I wanted to embrace and enjoy every second of my maternity leave. And I have. Though writing has never left my mind, I find inspiration every day, in songs, in nature, in moments with my son. He makes me want to take a closer look at myself and how I can set an example for him. I want him to grow up to be determined and to dream. I want him to know that he can do anything that is in his heart as long as he never gives up. Most of all I want him to have the confidence to believe in himself. The confidence I seemingly never have and fight to gain every day. I struggle to believe I am good at writing and this passion is worth pursuing.
Having said all that, I felt like now was the time to return to my more public forum and rekindle my online relationships. So allow me to give you all an update on what I am currently working on. I was looking through my old Word documents a while ago and came across a chapter one of a story I once abandoned… for reasons unknown… and thought to myself I have something here. I edited the beginning a bit and continued to write another couple of chapters. I’ve made some notes on the characters and have generally mapped out in my mind where I would like the story to go. This story is stuck in my brain every day, even when I don’t get to write anything I’m thinking about it. For that reason, I know I need to do my best to finish it, however long it may take me.
I am working on balance. I’m trying to be more selfish and use the free time I have for myself rather than housework or laundry or worse. While I can’t promise to be consistent in my posts, I will only promise to try.
2014… a new beginning… a new year… a new goal…
Welcome back to me and to you!
Thank you for taking the time again to read this. I really appreciate it because I know how busy everyone is.
Thank you for sharing in my crazy journey.